darling....muacx!!!!

going to sg trip soon...yeapie....

thanks for going sg with me....
hope our trip will be a memorize and enjoyable trip....

darling,
i love u...
muacx....

yeapie!!!

yeappie.....left 1 subject liao....so happy....
i can go out as usual liao...

but,
i ve got the news 2day...
our singapore trip maybe cancel due to swine flu....
omg...
i dont wish....
cos tata already bought the air ticket, and go wit me...
T.T
wish the gems go far away from asia...
hate u!!swine flu....

2day i went to enrol for my next semester, actuali is not enrolment day,
but since i want to enrol earlier, then i ask marianne to do so....thanx, mariane...
im taking purchasing cost control and p.moral.....is quite easy de i think...
but i don wan in bm, i want in english de....T.T

im happy, he's going to sg with me....muahaha
he reali go for me....i think i will be veri enjoy during this holiday....jiang jiang!
thank u, tata!!!!
mizz u.....muacx....

exam...

jux finish food & society,
next on, french and housekeeping,
and also service quality...

i think this semester is mine most stressful semester...
omg...
i dun1 take so many subject nex time anymore...
nvr think want to cry...
but this sem,
so damn want to die....
crazy....

so lucky that food & society paper was not that hard as i thought...
i still can manipulate....

hope after finish exam,
i can go out relax as usual....
damn it....

每一天

我们俩好像每一天都在见面吧...
就算不见面，我们都会sms或讲电话...
这是所谓的“有情饮水饱”...

每一晚，
很害怕你对我厌倦...
似乎活在你的影子里....
每一天，
都在想着你....
都想见到你...

可是某些原因，
不允许我每一晚和你见面...
我真得很讨厌这种不自由的生活...
什么都要被控制...
如果可以选择，
我宁可不要有这么好的生活，
一天到晚都不可以做自己要做的事...

我想他了....

这一夜，我想他了...

明天下午要考试了, 我竟然没有心情温书...
脑子里都是他，看着他的friendster...
不该出现在我脑海里的，时时刻刻转动着他的影子...
我好不喜欢思念的感觉，我希望能现在看到他....

他刚刚打电话给我，我竟然哭了...
告诉他，我真的好压力...学不进任何一点东西...
他吩咐我想他，让我自己能够放轻松点....

想他，我到做得到....
但，放松，你认为我做得到吗？
脑子里都是你，你要我怎么温书呢？

请你离开我的脑袋一会儿，好吗？
T.T

again....

this few week, realli stress.... lastly done release stress that comfort by a friend...
but it looks so far away from me....i wish to have freedom lifestyle...i will control everything myself...exam coming, no mood to studi...cos of u guys, let me think not to stay at home....

i doesnt like ppl threat me by using money...and YOU! trying to do that...i start to hate u....don ever think that you re my sis then you can do anything you wan to me....i hate u...u try to do dat....#$%^#$%^&

dad and mummy, im no longer your little girl anymore...i have my own thinking...dun ever want to control me...u will force me to do sumthing that u do not wish to happen de....u ve experienced...you noe dat....everything i can stand, but besides freedom had controlled....
u guy are trying to challenge my temper....think before k....

im not continuing to let u guys threat me...jus i dun1 stirring up trouble....
i will behave myself, no need to remind me k.....dun let me hate u guys....im not unfillial, but jux wan take back what i wan....

他們結婚已有兩年了.

他愛好文學，經常寫文章放上網絡，可是從來沒有人去看。

他也會攝影，他們結婚的照片就是他自己拍的。

他很愛她。

她也是.

她脾氣很大，經常「欺負」他，是個「辛辣小霸王」。

他脾氣不大，經常讓她，是個「廿四孝老公」。

今天，她又「任性」了。

她﹕「你為什麼不肯替我朋友的婚禮當攝影師？她答應價錢照付。」

他﹕「那一天我剛好沒時間。」

她﹕「哼！」

他﹕「嗯？」

她﹕「什麼沒時間？你少寫幾篇鬼都不看的小說，不就行了。」

他﹕「我相信總有一天，會有人欣賞的。」

她﹕「哼！不管怎樣，你一定要替她拍婚禮照。」

他﹕「不行。」

她﹕「就只一次。」

他﹕「一次也不行。」

談判失敗了。於是，她下了最後通牒﹕

「三天之內，必須答應，否則-- 」

第一天。

她「封鎖」了廚房、浴室、電腦、雪櫃、電視機、音嚮組合，

只有雙人床沒被「封鎖」，以示「寬宏大量」。

當然，她自己也要睡。

他不在乎，因為他口袋還有點零錢。

第二天。

她施以突襲，搜去他口袋的一切，並警告﹕

「瞻敢找「外援」的話，一切後果自負。」

他慌了。

晚上。

床上。

他求饒，希望她結束這種非常狀態。

她不睬他。決心不「軟」不能被他的花言巧語「迷惑」。

除非答應條件。

第三天。

晚上。

床上。

他靠在床上，頭朝東。

她靠在床上，頭朝南。

他﹕「我們好好談談。」

她﹕「不答應條件，不談。」

他﹕「我談的很重要。」

她不吭聲。

他﹕「我們離婚吧。」

她頭皮一炸，摸摸耳朵。

他﹕「我認識一個女孩。」

她氣極了，想爬起來與他打一場。

但她又忍住了，要讓他把話說完，

不能沒有「度量」，不過，她覺得眼睛有 點濕了。

他從胸口摸出一張照片。

她猜出他是從貼身襯衫口袋掏出來的，

因為前天只有這件襯衫沒有

搜索過，是看走了眼。

他﹕「這個女孩很漂亮很溫柔」

她淚水出來了。

他﹕「而且性格也挺好。」

她很傷心，因為他把別的女孩子的照片放在「貼心」的口袋。

他﹕「她說和我結婚後全力支持我寫作。」

她很嫉妒，因為當初她也對他說過這話。

他﹕「這個女孩是真心愛我的。」

她想爬起來朝他吼﹕「我不也是？」

他﹕「因此，我想她是不會逼我幹我不願意幹的事的。」

她在考慮，但她氣難消。

他﹕「你要看看我替她拍的照片嗎？」

她﹕「? 」

他把那張照片湊到她眼前。

她火氣很大，一掌打開他的手，

再在他瞼上留下鮮紅的五指印。

他嘆了口氣。

她出了口氣。

他把照片放回口袋。

她把手縮進被窩。

他把燈熄了，睡了。

她把燈開了，起來。

他睡著了。

她失眠了。

她後悔了，不該對他這樣。

她又哭了，想了很多。

她要把他喊醒，要和他親親熱熱地談談。

她絕不再逼他了。

她盯住他胸口。

她要看看那個女孩究竟是什麼樣子?

她摸出照片。

她又好氣又好笑，又想哭又想笑。

那是她自己的「標準照」。

是他替她拍的。

她俯下身來，在他的臉上親了一下。

他笑了。原來他也沒有睡著。

人與人相處 感情有時淡有時濃

只要 不要忘記最初的相識情境

感情才能長久

戀人、朋友皆是

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If you love something very very much....

Let it go free!!!...

If it doesnt come back...

It means it does not belong to you...

If it does, Please love it forever!....

如果你很愛很愛某樣東西 就讓他自由吧!

如果他不回來, 那表示他並不屬於你...

如果他回來了, 要永遠愛他...

我在這願大家都要幸福喔

Tired...

This few days cant sleep well, every morning 5am wake up automatically...sienz~when came back from class always felt sleepy....my sleeping time is so difficult to adjust, always abnormal than others...OMG....help me...

today, just back from tech club trip-visitation PC fair...it's so crowd...im tried to find the things i want but cant found..plan to go again...lolz...

Segi food fair come 2 more days from now,sure get busy and tired....
Guys!!!Go and support yar.....

Sorry...im gonna apologies to u...it's so sorry that i said faulty.....

yesterday got my assignment and presentation result, it's a lower marks that i have....i ve need to work harder in my exam, if not, i have to see Mr. novert again....sigh*
God, I pray that my revision and exam can be done perfectly and smoothly...AMEN!

update

sorry for the late update...

busy doing my assignment and preparing my presentation...omg..so stressful...every subject has presentation...last 2 weeks, rhodia went to kl...im so lonely without her...but when she came back, i feel always wanna have fight with her...haha....cos she looks childish...erm..i mean the mind of child...haha...think back...im really "indifference" in this 2 weeks....well, it's make me miss her a lot, but not so also...lol...what am i talking about?*

exam coming, no mood to study...thinking of singapore trip, thinking of playing game, thinking of watching drama...holy Sh*t...how am i going to pass my 5 subject? help me Father God....AMEN!
Sir, hope u guys giving us the 100% focus area please....help me to pass it all...next time i wont take so MUCH subject....next semester im going to sit exam for the law.. i pray that my law and practical can pass once....thanks Lord...

Little Nyonya小娘惹

recently, im watching a Singapore drama, named

The story spans over 70 years, from the 1930s till the present day.

Huang Juxiang is born into a large Peranakan family where her mother is a mistress. She is gentle, beautiful and a fantastic cook. Due to a serious illness when she was 9 years old, Juxiang becomes a deaf-mute. Because of her handicap, she is ostracized by people. Right before the Japanese Occupation in Singapore, she is forced to marry Charlie Zhang, a rich Peranakan, and become his mistress. Juxiang resists the marriage and runs away from home. She then meets Yamamoto Yousuke, a young Japanese photographer, and after overcoming many obstacles, they finally get married and Juxiang gives birth to a daughter Yueniang. During the World War, Juxiang is tortured and both she and her husband die, leaving behind their 8-year-old daughter.

The orphaned Yueniang eventually walks to her grandfather's house on her own. Under the supervision of her grandmother, she learns to cook Peranakan dishes and sewing. She grows up looking exactly like her mother and is exceptionally beautiful. After the war, her maternal relatives who ran away to England to seek refuge return home. Yueniang ends up leading the life of her mother – always discriminated against, beaten up and tortured. She puts up with all these in order to protect her grandmother.

Yueniang's pretty looks incurs jealousy from her cousin and attracts the attention of many rich Peranakans. However, she only has eyes for penniless driver Chen Xi. Chen Xi actually comes from an educated and wealthy family. Yueniang's kindness, purity and persistence move Chen Xi and he falls deeply in love with her, and hides his identity to be with Yueniang. Unfortunately, their relationship is filled with many obstacles and difficulties. Under pressure from his family, Chen Xi is forced to marry Yueniang's cousin instead. Yueniang is then sold to a butcher, Liu Yidao.

Yueniang is unwilling to accept the fact that her life is always manipulated by others and decides to end her own life. Yueniang's strong personality impresses Liu Yidao and they become sworn siblings instead. Yueniang decides to choose her own path in life. She begins learning how to run a business and in the process, she is framed and ousted from her business. Despite the odds, she manages save her declining family business. Sadly, her love life has yet to begin a new chapter with no news about her love interest, Chen Xi.

Huang's Family

Elders

Huang Yuan (黄元, also known as Tow Kay, meaning "Huang, Head of Household", portrayed by Yan Bing Liang (严炳量))- Head of the Huang family.

Guihua (桂花, also known as Tua Ji, or "Big Sister", portrayed by Lin Meijiao (林梅娇))- The matriarch of the Huang family. She is very protective of her daughters, and hates Tian Lan's side of the family with a passion, treating them in a subservient manner. She later suffers a stroke during her attempt to burn Yueniang, whom she blames for all the misfortunes happening in the family.

Tian Lan (天兰, portrayed by Xiang Yun (向云)) - Mother of Juxiang. She was a maid of the Huang family. Was raped by Huang Yuan and taken in as second mistress of the house. However, her status in the family is essentially a maid. She was accidentally thrown off the second floor of the Huang residence by Jincheng, after Tian Lan stumbled upon his affair with Xiujuan. Tian Lan died from her injuries.

Tua Koh (大姑, portrayed by Guan Xuemei (管雪梅))- A very demeaning elder in the Huang family. She often abuses Ah Tao

First generation

Huang Jincheng (黄金成, portrayed by Darren Lim (林明伦)) - Son of Huang Yuan and Guihua. Originally, he likes Xiu Juan but is arranged to marry her sister, Xiu Feng instead. He died of a massive heart attack upon learning that Tianbao had been sentenced to death for murdering Chen Sheng, as well as Charlie and Robert Zhang.

Huang Meiyu (黄美玉, portrayed by Apple Hong (洪乙心)) - Eldest daughter of the Huang family, and sister of Jincheng. Wife of Chen Sheng. However, Chen Sheng does not regard her as his wife. As a result, she shows a great sense of hatred towards Juxiang and Yueniang.

Xiufeng (秀凤, portrayed by Pan Lingling (潘玲玲)) - daughter in law of Guihua. Married to Jincheng.

Xiujuan (秀娟, portrayed by Cynthia Koh (许美珍)) - Younger sister of Xiufeng. She had an affair with Jincheng. When Huang Tianbao was arrested for the murder of Chen Sheng, she plotted a scheme to defraud the Huangs of their money, under the pretext of bribing a high-ranking police officer. The plot succeeded, with the Huangs giving her the proceeds from their sale and mortgage of virtually all of the Huang's assets. She ran away to Hong Kong after she received the money. However, she kept the money in a bank during her years on Hong Kong, where it earned a tidy sum of interest. She returned the money to the Huangs after many years.

Huang Juxiang (黄菊香, portrayed by Jeanette Aw (欧萱))- Although born into a wealthy Peranakan family, she is treated with scorn and insult because of her mother's humble origins. She is deaf and mute from nine years old when she fell sick, as a result, she cannot stand up for herself in many cases. She died of internal injuries soon after her husband, Yamamoto Yousuke, was killed by Japanese soldiers.

Second generation

Huang Tianbao (黄天宝, infrequently called Alexandre Huang, portrayed by Andie Chen (陈邦鋆)) - The only son of Huang Jincheng and Xiufeng. He sent someone to kill Chen Sheng with hopes that Robert would reinstate him as deputy GM, but was laughed at instead. He was sentenced to death for instigating the murder of Chen Sheng as well for the murder of Charlie and Robert Zhang.

Huang Zhenzhu (黄珍珠, portrayed by Eelyn Kok (郭蕙雯)) - first daughter of Xiufeng and Jincheng. A wilful girl who fancies Chen Xi. She witnessed Yuzhu being raped by Robert, but did nothing. She managed to marry Chen Xi but in the end, she ran away with another man as she didn't want to stay with Chen Xi, who ends up hating and disliking her.

Huang Yuzhu (黄玉珠, portrayed by Joanne Peh (白薇秀)) - Second daughter of Xiufeng and Jincheng. A demure girl who fancies Chen Xi, but eventually suffers an ill fate after being forced to marry Robert Zhang who raped her. She was committed to a mental institution for the rest of her life, after giving birth to Zuye, the father of Angela. It is not known what happened to her after that.

Yamamoto Yueniang (山本月娘, portrayed by Jeanette Aw (欧萱), elder version portrayed by Xiang Yun (向云))- The daughter of Juxiang. She looks exactly like her mother, it was due to her parents' deaths that she became a rather strong-willed and feisty woman, and she is still forgiving towards Guihua and her other relatives in spite of how much they had mistreated her and her family.

Third generation

Zuye (祖业, young version portrayed by Lim Yongxun (林泳勳), elder version portrayed by Zzen Zhang (章缜翔))- Son of Yuzhu, but due to Yuzhu's mental condition, he was adopted and raised by Yueniang. He became a lawyer and had two sons and a daughter, who is none other than Angela.

Fourth generation

Angela (安淇, portrayed by Felicia Chin (陈靓萱)) - A university student in Canada. Originally considered to be the biological granddaughter of Yueniang, it was revealed in the end that she is the biological granddaughter of Robert Zhang and Yuzhu, as her father (Zuye) was adopted by Yueniang due to Yuzhu's mental illness. During a time before the series, she had an unlucky run in romance, and decided to briefly return to Malacca. It was in Malacca that she learnt about her adoptive grandmother's bitter past.

Chen family

Elders

Madame Chen (陈老太, portrayed by Li Yinzhu (李茵珠)) - Chen Xi's great-grandmother (Chor Chor), Chen Sheng's grandmother (Ma Ma). Likes to eat rempah udang very much. She places great emphasis on women's ability to cook Peranakan dishes and sewing beaded shoes.

First generation

Chen Gong (陈功, portrayed by Chen Xiang (陈翔)) - The eldest grandson of Madame Chen, frequently comes into conflict with the Zhang family.

Chen Sheng (陈盛, portrayed by Pierre Png (方展发)) - Married to Meiyu, but harbours love for Juxiang. After losing Juxiang, he drowns his sorrow by spending his free time drinking as well as singing and dancing pantun with young women. Sheng was murdered on the orders of Huang Tianbao, who believed that it was what Robert Zhang wanted.

Second generation

Chen Xi (陈锡, portrayed by Qi Yuwu (戚玉武))- So named because on the day of his birth, his family signed a lucrative Tin contract, he is the only child in his family. Having been educated in the UK, he has always been more liberal than his conservative family. Although he wanted to marry Yueniang, his family forced him to marry Huang Zhenzhu instead. After he thought Yueniang had died in the fire where Robert Zhang had set up, he later married to Libby and had six children. His career was very successful and did a lot of charity.

Zhang family

Charlie Zhang (查里张, portrayed by Desmond Sim (沈金兴))- A baba who returned from the United Kingdom, he is generally disapproving of the Peranakan culture, earning him scorn from the older generation of high Peranakan society. He has affairs with many women, and makes use of his wealth and status to collaborate with the Japanese. It is heavily implied that he had something to do with the deaths of Yousuke and Juxiang. He was accidentally killed during a scuffle between Robert Zhang and Huang Tianbao, when a pistol was accidentally fired, hitting Charlie in the head.

Robert Zhang (罗伯张, portrayed by Zzen Zhang (章缜翔)) - Son of Charlie Zhang. A cunning one like his father, he raped Yuzhu and tortured her endlessly after marrying her, even to the extent of drugging & betraying her physical self to other men in exchange of business benefits. He was killed by Huang Tianbao, despite Robert's promise to return the money and distributorship to the Huangs.

Other characters

Ah Tao (阿桃, portrayed by Ng Hui (黄慧), elder version portrayed by Zhu Xiufeng (朱秀凤))- An amah for the Huang family. Originally a personal servant of Huang Yuan's elder sister, Tua Koh (who abused her heavily), she was bought by Tian Lan, and became her kitchen helper. She is loyal to Juxiang and Yueniang, and served Yueniang all the way to the present day. Her right leg was broken by Guihua sometime at the beginning of the show.

Yamamoto Yousuke (山本洋介, portrayed by Dai Yangtian (戴阳天)- An ethnic Japanese, he was very interested in Peranakan culture. In order to protect Juxiang from the philandering Charlie Zhang, he married her. Yousuke was murdered by invading Japanese when Singapore fell to Japanese forces. It is implied that Charlie Zhang had a role in his murder.

Liu Yidao (刘一刀, portrayed by San Yow (姚玟隆) - A butcher who had an arranged marriage with Yueniang, but later accepted her as his sworn sister. He and his brotherhood later assisted Yueniang with her business. At the advice of Yueniang, Yidao gave up his bullying and gangster-like ways, in favour of a more civilized lifestyle.

Libby (丽贝儿, portrayed by Pamelyn Chee (齐騛) - A woman who is more liberal than social norms at the time, she eventually married Chen Xi, and had six children with him.

Jonathan Li Xiuwen (李修文, portrayed by Nat Ho (鹤天赐) - A native of Hong Kong who grew up in Canada. He fell in love with his university schoolmate Angela, and followed her from Canada to Malacca.

Da Sha (大傻, lit. "The Big Silly [person]", portrayed by Li Yuejie (李岳杰)) - A simple-minded lunatic who saved Yueniang's life when she was in a coma after being rescued from a well. Pioneer of bird's nest dish and helped her with her business.

Paul (portrayed by Bobby Tonelli)- A British lawyer who was originally retained by Robert Zhang, but eventually helped the Chens in a lawsuit. He later married Yueniang. The couple have no children of their own, as Yueniang had 2 miscarriages.